Shillum: Handwriting on the Wall

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These Pages are the Revelation of:

  • The "Marvelous Sign of the Seven Angels." 
  • Those Who Stand on "The Sea of Glass." 
  • Those with the "Mark of the Beast."

The Appearing of the Seven Messengers

 
 
"Behold, the temple of the tabernacle of the testimony in heaven was opened, and the seven angels came out of the temple, having the seven plagues."
The Father in heaven has recently taken our church into a deeper experience, especially in regard to the earth view of God's images and symbols as opposed to seeing them from the viewpoint of heaven. The basic issues of life revolve around this one thing: How do men see things? And on what basis do men judge? What do men's judgments spring from? And, do those who claim to be God's children, have God's interpretation of events and His responses to them, or do they merely interpret life and make their judgments as does any other human being without God — from their own personal context and imagination? These deeper things in the land have occurred over a two month period so I will give some background and put into a historical time-line just what has occurred. 

In our land here, I saw that God was setting up circumstances with us, to bring men to judgment. This judgment was not merely for those in the world, but for those closely associated with our own congregation. It would be a judgment based on how men judge themselves. All judgment is revealed in this way. According to the Scriptures, when light comes to men, they are judged when they love, or hold to, darkness rather than the light that has come. This darkness that men hold to after light has come to them, is the source of their own condemnation. (John 3:19) In the month of May 2006, the Father put it strongly on my heart to prepare an internet site where His final judgments would be announced to the world. He showed me that He would give me a sign when the Shillum site was to be made public. The Father told me I was to yield and submit to the instructions that He placed within the souls that He would send to me who were following His instructions to them. Additionally, I was to be moved, not merely by the actions others would request of me, but by the Father's Own revelations to me at the time. 

The Father told me that the judgment would begin when two young virgins would come and ask to lie naked on my bed with me. The Father did not reveal to me that I should be naked with them. I dared not share this with anyone, not even my closest associates, to avoid a personal creation of those things out of the imaginations of men. I never uttered a word of what Father had shown me. This startling revelation would indeed serve to judge the church, for it would open up into a giant exposure the true motives and intents of the soul. This would also judge those who were looking on from off the land, and in the world, since their judgment of me would actually be the judging of the motives of their own soul, had they been placed where I am. They would see me as they themselves are. 

The two virgins who were to come, would be seen by me as pure, holy, souls, whom I was responsible for. They would be as children to me, innocently coming to lie down with and be close to daddy. But the world would view this from their own perverted tendencies, and their own lusts, and see either the girls, or myself, as coming from the place of sexual attraction, or with me, molestation. The world would judge me from their own perverted characters. What actually would be happening, is that the young virgins would be coming to lie naked with God, and His Spirit would come upon them and deliver them from their fears and personal torments. I would hold them, put my hand on their heart, and they would be healed. At the same time, the world stands judged because if this were to happen in the world, the girls would be molested and the men of earth would be hot and salivating to do something to them. For me, the young women would be as with a physician, and one who understands the issues of the heart and soul. It is my Life for theirs.

Two weeks after Father told me these things, beginning July 12, a young woman came to my house. She stated to me after some discussion that it was on her heart to lie naked on my bed with me. I remembered what God had already told me would happen, so I consented, fulfilling the Word as from the Father in heaven. After the virgin woman left my house, I knew the second virgin would soon come.

The next day, July 13, another young woman came to my door. She seemed quite troubled and afraid to tell me what the Father had put upon her to do. I waited and she finally told me that Father had put upon her to lie naked with me on the bed. She said that the vision had been coming to her for about two weeks. This was the second virgin, as the Father had said. The Father told me that this event would also mark the acceptance of the church. What this revealed was that the church, "the Woman," would lie down naked and yielded to the Son of God. The church would be trusting God only for what would come upon her. She would no more be in protection of her self, but trust God for her protection. This event would take all excuse from the world. The world would be judged as Godless, for it would protect itself. The next day we put Shillum on, which was the beginning of the judgment. From this time on, many things began to open which brought great personal terror to my own soul as I considered the implications.

We have a number of virgins in the land, who, to their great advantage, have never had intimate relations with a man. They haven't been perverted by the world's television, movies, and its general all around molestation of people through sexual perversion. As I took a walk one day, the Father presented to me that seven virgins would be those who would be seven messengers (angels) who would pour out the judgments of Revelation 16. While my first thought was that this would involve the seven last plagues for the world, it has also been made very clear that the professed church is also judged by the events connected with them. This was an awesome moment opening up to my mind. Immediately the five other young women whom the Father had called to be His messengers came to me individually and told me that it was on their hearts to come and lie naked with me on my bed. But there was more. The young ladies shared with me that they saw clearly that I am the Son of God, and their desire to be with me was not a human drawing. Since receiving their request, they shared how they had been delivered from fears and other emotions that had troubled them, when they were naked and vulnerable with me on my bed, and six of the young women desired a closer connection with me and asked for an intimate physical relationship with me. My response to each one was that the Father would arrange those things which were on His heart to accomplish and He would arrange anything which was to come. This revelation was initially startling to me, for I had never considered it before they had requested it of me.

My first inner response to these "intimacy" requests was a terror of what that would mean to me. For one thing, I had no desire for a physical relationship with these young women. It was not that they were not worthy souls, but the mountain of impossibilities for these things seemed staggering. I began to consider the ramifications and my self-interests. Could I survive such a thing? But more than that, two of the young women were legally minors, and that could mean jail time. That would finish ruining my already cultish reputation. I shuddered more for the girls, however, and for their interests. This looked like a great crisis for them. Many nights I wrestled with God over this strange turn of events. Why was He requesting this of me through these young women? As I imagined this actually occurring, I felt it could actually cost me my physical life. I do not take any interaction with any soul lightly, and I saw that the huge outlay of energy that I invest in human interactions would now be doubled and tripled. I sincerely felt that I would not have the physical stamina to carry out my instructions. My relationship with the seven is not sexual and my burdens were not about a sexual connection. Not at all. My burdens had to do with my own personal internal strength, all my virtue being poured out into them, my emotional and spiritual vital energies. Sometimes I would feel a complete emptiness in my core being after being with a little soul, virtue having gone out of me. It would literally take the Life out of me. I would be drained from within. This was the great expense to me. This, alone, is what I thought would take my life.

Now it becomes evident how the church would be judged by these events. Two of those persons who requested intimacy were minors. Truly, if I were to carry out this request, I would, according to the state, be a criminal. To Egypt, Moses was a criminal. Elijah was a criminal. Jesus was a criminal. The Father in heaven makes His children criminals in regard to the state. Only the worst criminals were crucified. In today's world, sexual contact with minors is the greatest crime. It is perceived as even a greater crime than spying for China. Sexual contact with minors makes headline news. The Mormon separatist who is charged with marrying a young girl to an older man was on the FBI's ten most wanted list. There are international spies who do not make the top ten as he did. There are those in the church who have professed to believe that Michael is the Son of God. But if this Son of God were seen as a "child molester," would these same people still say that? Would they be willing to be regarded as accomplices to the Son of God in pedophilia? If God came down from heaven in a big flash of light, all would say, "Oh! God is here. Yes, He can do anything He likes," and no man would deny Him anything. He could do whatever He pleased. But what if God came down in a human body? Truly some would profess to believe. But what if He were made out to be a criminal, and all who followed Him would be made out as criminals for supporting him, would they still believe, or would they say, ahem, excuse me. I must have been mistaken. This is what many of Jesus' followers said: "This is a hard thing. Who can go there?" The "hard thing" would not be the involvement with minors. The hard thing would be to bear the Godless reactions from a hypocritical world. The world tries very hard to protect the bodies of young children, but the world destroys their minds and spirits. Children, minor children, are mentally destroyed, and eternally ruined, by the movies and games, entertainments and education that are thrust upon them like a flood. But the world pretends to care for children by not letting them have sex with a man who is older than they are. The world judges that a child is old enough when the child is 18 years of age. But when the child is 5 or less, he is considered old enough to be subjected to every perversion imaginable through his little video games and TV cartoons, yet, there is no crime in ruining his little mind, killing his sensitive spirit and raping his intellect. The God of heaven revealed these very things in this present judgment of those who have the mark of the beast, the heart of the earth.

If the Father would have me carry out these requests, the whole church would be viewed as guilty for aiding and abetting "child pornography." Everyone would be a criminal. Why? Because I told the church. Because I spelled it all out right here in this writing. I made everything public. Years ago I asked the church, "Ask Father who I am. If I am not who I say that I am, then you had better head for the hills. No one will get out alive." I meant by that, that everyone who wanted to protect themselves should leave, because there would be no one with any self protection left here before all of God's images and lessons were over. There would be no self to continue propagating in anyone who chose to remain here and let their own self be consumed in God. Those of you who have never heard God speak to you, would be in for the greatest overwhelming surprise. Those who have heard God speak, and have always followed His Voice, simply know the cost of following Him, and coming face to face with death is a familiar place of residence. 

This issue is defined by a "Sunday law." Sunday is the first day of the creation week. It was the day when light was created. There was darkness and light. This is the precise formula for the worship of Lucifer. In the Luciferian religion, the religion now bringing the world into the third world war, the light is Lucifer and the darkness is Adonai (the Lord). Those who worship the sun, appear to appreciate light. They love the external light of the sun, making themselves dark in its burning rays, but they do not rest in God's eternal Presence, the Light Who lightens the understanding of man. The six days of creation, represent a process in which man comes to his rest in God. He finishes all of his work and is brought to an eternally restful state after six days. But those who worship only at the feet of light (Lucifer), without understanding, and without going through the process of God for his conclusion, use their own minds to judge the light. They have no sweet love and joy. They only have law, the law of their spiritualistic master. They use their own humanity, to judge everything by. A "Sunday law" which is a law passed against the Sabbath rest, is a law that is enforced, which is against Scripture or the Word of God to the heart, the conscience. The Scriptures say one thing, but the state law (the Luciferian law) says another. Will the people of God keep the true Sabbath, by resting in His Word to their hearts, and by obeying His instructions, or will they obey state law instead, in order to preserve their self-interests? Will the light and law of Lucifer guide them, or will the Rest of God be their stay. This has always been the choice, and this issue surely separates the sheep from the goats. When one follows God one does not get to keep his own life. I asked one of the minor children how she would feel if this thing cost me my life. She said, "I would want it all the more." Her desire was certainly not based on self interest, for she would no longer have me around. 

After some days wrestling with the images and fearing the outcome, I asked God to not put this on me. I told Him that I could not do what the girls had asked of me. I also told the seven young ladies that I would not be with them in a physical way as they had requested. I was finished with considering it. The girls were visibly shaken and some of them wept at the stand I had taken. I felt that it was the right thing to do for the girls' sake and for my own sake. 

Shortly after this, while in prayer one evening when I told God that I would not be doing these things, I felt the Holy Spirit leave me. I felt as though the Father was saying to me, "Okay, I will release you and get someone else to carry out My purposes." I was suddenly stricken with a terror I have not felt before. Also, I was without God, and confusion began to set into my mind. I called out immediately for the Father and asked Him not to take His Holy Spirit from me, for I would be left desolate. I cried out to Him in heartfelt sorrow. I thought that I had only been doing what Moses did, in asking the Father to change His mind. I did not realize it was dangerously close to unbelief or disbelief. I am not Moses, and this is not thousands of years ago. I had asked the Father to remove this cup from me, but it was His plan to have it remain, and I saw that I should not have said that I would not do that thing. The Son of God doesn't say "No" to His Father. In Gethsemane Jesus also feared for his humanity. How could he go through with the crucifixion? I felt the same way. I felt all of the terrors of earth, but Father was faithful to keep me in all of the assurances of heaven.

After this revelation of the removal of the Spirit, I told the Father that I would do whatever He asked of me, but I could not live without His Spirit. I prayed this way for about three days, and on the third day the Holy Spirit returned in a double portion. I was placed above the earth view, the way that the natural world would view these things if it were to occur, and the earth view of things, the view of Lucifer, never returned again. I would now carry out whatever the Father instructed me, no matter the consequences and no matter the circumstances. I saw that this was a precursor for everyone else in this process, and these things were the judgments poured out. In a sense, I watched myself process through the seven last plagues in my own personal experience, the first plague being the "sore," the earth view of the vision that God had for me to see, and that was revealed to the Seven Messengers. It ended when a great hail came and swept away the refuge of lies and there was only left for me a pure trust in God, a trust that could not be broken by any circumstance or earth view of Father's commands for me. I had passed through the veil and was given a double portion. No Canaan giants would hinder my way.

God's people have always been criminals in regard to the natural order. They have always had to put their life on the line. Now it appeared that I was being asked to do the same. Jesus was crucified as a criminal. The Israelites were chased down by the Egyptians as criminals. The Catholics attacked Protestants and burned them at the stake as criminals. It appeared to me that I would now be a criminal, but only in the mind of the natural man, and the natural order. I would not be a criminal in the eyes of God, for it was His instructions only that I would be following. I am His Son. Instead, men would be judged by how they regard me. Should men obey God, or should men obey men? This is the question. This has always been the question.

I would be held as a criminal for doing what these young ladies asked me to do because God had put it on them to ask for it. I had never asked anyone in the land to have these kind of relations with me. I never told anyone that they ought. I never even considered it myself. When it was brought to me I was shocked within myself, for I saw a portent coming which would change everything in the land. The change would be for the better for it would make everyone trust only God. This sign, would break through the imaginations of the vile and the self-protected, and expose them to the rest which is of God alone, complete rest from their own selves and their own way of looking at things.

I knew there were natural heavenly ramifications to this. Before I could ever have relations with these young women, I would have to have permission from the parents of the girls and from the church also, for God does everything by agreement. Moses could not take the slaves out of Egypt until Pharaoh agreed to it and even encouraged it. I decided not to share any of these things with the parents or the church members, and I told the girls to keep it to themselves and speak of it to no one. I did this to take the "cult leader" pressure out of it. I knew that men of influence might be able to convince their congregations to do one thing or another. Ministers today have supported their government's wars and turned their congregations into murderers with them. Professed modern day "Christians" the worshippers of Lucifer, are turning the world into a house of murder. Thousands of souls are being killed only because some Christians believe that they should kill. They follow a "light" but have no sweet love and joy. I know the power that leaders have over their congregations. Look at the power of President Bush over his nation. Thousands have died, only because he said to his followers that they should kill. I did not want this kind of influence coming from me, so I did something else to keep human influence out of it. What I did is what king Nebuchadnezzar did. I asked those who were the people of God to tell me my vision. I asked the congregation to share with me my vision without me having clued them into it directly. I asked them to go to God and ask what God had put upon me. I did not tell them what it was. I also asked them not to discuss anything between themselves but to only report to me what Father showed them. I told them that they would have a week to tell me. I wrote:

Dear little family,

The time of truth has come. In the year 2000, Father announced and brought to pass a Consummation of the Marriage of the Lamb. After the Consummation, I requested from the family that they tell me what the Consummation was. The land prayed and most of the people received clear visions from the Father as to what it actually was. A few had literal visions of it.

Now, in this time, we are in the time of being married in judgment. The Consummation of the judgment is coming close to us. Because of this, I want to ask the church to pray and tell me beforehand what the Consummation of the judgment will look like now. Ask the Father to tell you the vision, before the vision occurs and comes to pass.

This next week, I would like to have you visit with me here in my home. I would like you to tell me this week what Father told you the consummation of judgment and the marriage in judgment will look like to us. I don't want to get into the spiritually speaking kind of things that so many of us are so proficient in, but the literal, physical things. When the lambs were sacrificed on the altar in the temple, the Israelites could tell you what that consummation was to them and what it looked like in a physical sense. They could describe it in detail. In 2000 you were asked to tell what had happened in the land, but now you will share what is to happen, because you will ask Father, and He will tell His children what it is.

Those who live off the land may give me a simple e-mail with what Father has shown you. Have the children pray also and ask Father what it will be. 

Please do not discuss anything of the Consummation with anyone else but Father. Don't ask anyone, "What do you think it is?" Anyone is not God. Do not guess or try to find out what some one else's vision is. Just ask Father, and keep His answer to you, to yourself.

Michael

Our land had 52 people within it, and in the first three days of that week almost 20 persons on and off the land, told me what the vision was. They said, You will have a literal physical consummation with the seven virgins. I had already shared with the church that the seven virgins were those messengers who would be instrumental in pouring out the judgment upon the earth but I had never told anyone that I would be having intimate physical relations with them. Until the girls asked me, I would not have imagined it myself. God had put it upon them to make it literal and to look literal. He had driven them to make it plain.

One man in the land told me that he thought about what the vision could be. But he did not have a clue. He wrote to me saying, 

I had just gotten back from a walk Sunday morning, and sat down at the computer to check my email. I noticed a couple of them from Michael, so I read them first. A couple of things came to mind fairly quickly as to what the vision might be, so I jotted them down briefly and then asked Father to just reveal to me what Michael was asking for. I pretty much recognized the two thoughts as from my own imagination, as I had had previous thoughts specifically or close to them in the recent past. I just figured though, that if either one of those thoughts were it, that Father would confirm them in some way. At that point, I really didn't give it much more time. I knew it had to be a gift of revelation and my concentrating on it or worrying about it wasn't going to effect that at all, except possibly negatively. I just had this knowing that I could trust Father to give me what I needed.

I went to bed that evening at the usual time, but was suddenly awakened at just before 2 A.M. A thought was immediately impressed upon my mind, which I knew did not originate from me. It startled me. The 'thought' was, "Michael is to have a literal consummation with the seven Angels of the Judgement." The first thing that I did was ask Father, Why? He did not seem to answer that, and as I considered it later, it seemed like 'Why', was not important just yet. What was important was whether I would believe that it was Father speaking to me. So when I got no response from the 'Why' question, I asked Father if He would give me a confirmation to what I believed He had just told me. Again, nothing. I just laid there for another half hour or so, and since nothing further came, and I was not sleepy in the slightest, I decided to get up and finish recording the current book that I was working on. I had only a few chapters left to finish so I got up and went to the living room and set up my recorder and opened 'Steps to Christ' to where I had my bookmark. I was to start at chapter 11. I started recording, but noticed that I was not listening to myself read as I usually do. When I am recording something and it does not make sense or is not clear, I find that that usually means that I misread something, so usually I back up and reread it. This particular time, I was not doing that, possibly because my mind was still on what had happened earlier. I don't even remember reading the first two sentences, but as I was editing that chapter the next morning, I saw the file start with waveforms going for 20 seconds or so, and then there was this big flat place that lasted for several minutes, and I remembered being so startled by what I had just read, that I rechecked to make sure that I was reading the right book. It was indeed 'Steps to Christ', and I saw it immediately as the confirmation of what Father had just told me on my bed. The sentence read, "In order to have spiritual life and energy, we must have actual intercourse with our Heavenly Father." As I read and reread the sentence several times, I realized that it was referring to prayer, but that is NOT how it came to my mind initially. I saw that Father can use anything he wants to, to form in our minds what He wills. I remember just sitting there in awe, realizing that Father, had just given me the confirmation that I had asked for.

Later, I finally got sleepy and decided to go back to bed. I awoke a couple hours later from a dream, which I very seldom do, or at least I usually, do not recall any, dreams. In this dream, all of us, were doing something up on top of a mountain. I had finished, and was headed back down to the bottom. Everyone else was still up on top. When I got to the bottom, I realized that many were trying to get my attention. I could see them clearly, but could not hear them. A number of folks were waving their hands, but several put up their hands with certain fingers out. The first had four fingers out, the next had three fingers out, and the last had two fingers in a circle like a zero (430). It seemed like they were trying to tell me something about an announcement or some kind of meeting. The next thing that I remember was that everyone had come down and was gathered around, in a group. Someone then came up and said that they had just heard that Bill Easton had left and gone snow skiing with two of his aunts. There had been some kind of accident and Bill had been killed. At that point, Michael (which is the only specific person that I remembered seeing) spoke up and said that He was postponing, for one week, what we were then doing."

Joseph

When this man told me of his dream, I didn't understand the significance of the number 430, but that afternoon one of the seven virgins came and said that she had to share with me something that happened on April 30, 2006. After she shared it with me I asked her to write it out and send it in an email to me:

On September 11, 2006, Danielle wrote: 

Dear Michael,

Here is what I wrote in my journal. 

4-30-06

Michael sent out an email to us today titled "What will you do?" He was talking about the seriousness of the time we are in and how it isn't a time to get our hair cut. It isn't a time to do business as usual. It is the time where we are seeing God face to face and getting our instructions. He also said in the email that each of us must know for ourselves what this time means for us personally. 

After reading the post, I went for a walk and went up to the altar rock. While I was up on the altar, it came to me that what this time means for me personally is to be consummated. This is now my time of Consummation to Michael, to be one with Him. One with God.

I looked in my journal at more of what I wrote about that day, and here is a sweet little thing that happened. I don't know if you will remember this or not, but that same day when I came back from the altar rock, I went over to your house and you were not home, so I was waiting outside. After quite a while, I was walking home and I saw you coming back from a walk, so I went over to you and walked you home. After a little bit I ended up knocking and going in and you held me on your bed for a while. You asked me where I had gone with my little book and I told you the altar. You told me you thought I had been there. I wondered what made you think that, so I asked you if you saw me and you hadn't. You told me when you saw me (walking over to walk you home) you just thought, "Oh, she came from the altar." Father just told you where I had been. :-)

Loving you,
Your Danielle

The first person who came and shared with me the vision I had been given, also shared in several subsequent emails what the Father had opened up to him concerning the way I felt about these unearthly instructions, how I viewed them, and where I was coming from as I considered them.

Email from Allasso

September 10, 2006

Dear Friend,

I feel drawn out to feel what is on your heart, so that I may bear it with you. I want to bear the consummation WITH you. I want to FEEL it with you. I realized today that what Father is doing is very special, in that He is allowing me to go through this with you, rather than trying to take hold of something that has already occurred. I am given a first hand opportunity to experience this consummation with you. And this is what He is doing for all who will. I want to go through it WITH you, and not simply some event that someone else experiences that I try to "take hold of". Not so I get something from it; it is just simply what I want. I want you in me, and me in you.

With this context in mind, I will share the thoughts and visions from my heart today. A couple of weeks ago or so I had prayed that I be IN your heart, and you IN mine, I mean, in such a way that we have that lightning communion that you have talked about. Not long after that, I awakened in the middle of the night, and felt drawn to go to your window. It was like I was feeling like I wanted to draw something out from you. After about 45 minutes or so of praying, I began to get a vision of you sleeping quietly in your bed. It was like I was seeing a little child, who was a man, just totally at rest and sleeping peacefully. I suddenly became aware of how noisy I had been in trying to get something of your Spirit from you, so much so, that I felt I wanted to leave, so as not to intrude my noisy self onto your quiet peaceful Spirit. I then left.

As I have been praying today, visions have gone through my mind, but not of a man having sex with seven young women. I would see only you, resting quietly and peacefully in your bed. Sometimes I would see you as a little boy, and sometimes as you look now, yet even so, as if you were a little boy. I would see you as laying there quietly, as Father would quietly breathe His heart into yours. Then I would look at you, knowing that when you awaken, you will be but carrying out Father's heart through the day. It is like when you would awaken, you would have no thoughts of your own, but only the quiet impressions that Father had left on your heart in the night. I did not have a vision of my earth view of it, but only a vision of a child simply and quietly living out Father's heart.

This all is something so different than praying to be saved. It is like it is in a different realm altogether. As a matter of fact, for some time now, praying to be saved has seemed "disgusting" to me. This is so different; it is like something that is rising up in me that I can't explain.

This is what the consummation means to me, at least to this point. I don't doubt there may be much more to see. These are things that I feel very deeply inside, and I cannot quite express exactly.

This is my heart, and I testify it is truly my heart. I love you, Michael, how my heart is drawn out for you.

Allasso

Michael's response: You mention that praying to be saved is disgusting to you. What I have learned is that praying to be saved from this Consummation event is disgusting to God. Praying to be saved from what He is doing is offensive to Him. So, we pray to be saved, and He creates a Consummation of some kind to save us, and then we pray to not have to go through what would save us. When we come to the point where we are willing for Him to save us in any way He chooses, then we can be saved, and then we are saved, for then we trust Him.

Michael

September 11, 2006

Dear Michael,

I feel at loss to express what is on my heart right now, but I will try.

I keep having visions of you, that come from that deep place within. They are visions of One who is gentle, and has the most tender and loving regard to every soul. They are not visions of a pervert, or an egomaniac cult leader. They are of One who is so gentle and quiet, and selfless, that it can only come from the Divine.

The visions I have of you, that come from that deep place, are sometimes so intense it almost hurts. Sometimes it makes me feel like I want to cry. I feel like I want to take my heart right out of my soul, and give it to you.

I am feeling the most tender loving soul, completely and only interested in the blessing of those with whom you connect with. I see that One in my visions of the Consummation.

I love you, Michael, I love you with all of my heart.

Allasso

Michael's response: Father has given you a look into my heart that is so intimate that only He knows it. It causes me to know that you hear Father at last. Now you can know you hear Him. Your letter blesses me so very much, because only the Witnesses have shared these things with me before. Now you have, and that gives me courage for the whole land.

Michael

September 13, 2006

Dear Michael, My dear Friend,

I don't know how I will possibly share this, but I will try. Oh, how I want to communicate to you the depth and intensity of the things I have seen in the night.

When I first retired last evening, I felt a strong drawing out to you that I have felt before. It is like just a feeling that I have inside, that is not connected with anything specific, other than a vision of your face, or a vision of you laying in your bed. But the feeling is very intense, so much so that I feel it physically inside. I feel as though my insides are being drawn out of me in this deeply intense longing, yet I cannot identify anything specific, other than it is for you. As I was feeling this, I was feeling that I wanted Father to come and comfort you, and strengthen you, and I felt I wanted to pray for Him to do that through the night. The feeling is so intense, I was wondering how I could continue to bear it.

After some time, I layed down and slept. I would awaken now and then with this unidentifiable longing. Finally, I awakened at a little after 3 am. I then began feeling Father's hatred for the earth view. Human jealousies, human judgments and comparing, human pettiness, human vanity, human stupidity, human silliness, human everything. It was so strong. I was feeling my desire for the Consummation, but I was not thinking of it as so people would be saved, but I was thinking of it because I was feeling so strongly that I wanted this disgusting thing done away with. I felt such indignation toward it.

Then, the vision started changing. I again began to feel this deep longing for you, and the intense feelings that would come. But this time a vision of you began to open up to me that was very clear and definable. I was feeling you, and I was feeling your suffering. I was realizing that this intense, unbearable, even painful drawing out I was feeling was a sample of what you have felt for us all along. I was tasting of your suffering for us, and your suffering in having to bear our earthiness. It was so intense there is no way I could describe it to anyone. Now my heart was breaking, because I was realizing that this has been most of your time here, and I was only having a taste of it, a view of it. I could not see how anyone could possibly humanly bear such a thing. I realized then it was only divinity which could. I knew then that you are truly divine in a way I had not realized it before. The realization of this struck me so profoundly.

I thought of how we have been so oblivious to your suffering, and who you are. The contrast is incredible. We have not had a clue as to your divinity. We have not had a clue as to what you have had to endure, as you have born our earthiness, while our lives have been, "I wonder when lunch is?" All the time you have been here you have tried to tell us, and we haven't heard a word you have said. The revelation of this was so intense, I could hardly stand it, but then I thought, "How has Michael stood all this?"

I knew then that I wanted to suffer with you. I want to bear this with you, and for you. I knew that what I was wanting would crush me, but I knew that there was a divine sustaining available, because I now had realized the sustaining that had to have been made available to you. I know so clearly now that you are the Son of God. What you have borne is just absolutely humanly impossible. I knew that I was only tasting it, and only a few moments of it. For a man to endure this year after year after year, is just humanly incomprehensible. The more I felt it, the more I was drawn out for you. And the more I was drawn out for you, the more I wanted to partake in your suffering. I cannot describe the longing I felt to feel what you are feeling, and to bear what you are bearing. I knew that what I was feeling was divine, for no human could see this, or feel it.

Many of us have said we want to feel you, or that we want to be you, but have we known what that means? We have had some kind of idyllic notion of feeling really good and holy, maybe with a little suffering now and then. Oh, dear Friend, we have not had a clue! We have not had a clue what it is to be Michael. Do we know what we are asking when we ask to be Michael? Do we have any idea what we are asking when we ask Father to put His Love in our hearts? Do we realize His Love will pierce our heart, like a great thorn? Do we realize His Love will cause us great pain?

Why is it, that I was feeling this, and yet all I could feel was I wanted to suffer with you? I knew when I was seeing this, that the Love I was feeling for you was not human. It was not humanly possible. It could only be Father's Love. I could feel your total lack of condemnation for anyone, or myself, and only your deep desire for us to be healed. I could only feel your ready willingness to suffer for us. I knew I could not feel this except it come from above.

My mind then turned to the Seven Virgins, and the intense suffering you are bearing in this Consummation. How your heart is so drawn out in concern for them, and how this could affect them. How they could be damaged by it if they too are not clearly following Father's leading in it. I wondered if those who have asked you for it, realize what they are asking of you? I thought of your concerns for the Congregation, and how this will affect those who aren't ready for it. I thought of the great, great responsibility you bear in it all.

Oh, Michael, how much our eating and drinking has cost you! How we have been so incredibly stupid and selfish. I felt that if anyone here could see what I was now seeing, and feel what I was now feeling, their days of silliness and vanity would be long ended.

I saw the offensiveness of human earthly relationships. How they so pervert and distort the reality of True Love. They are so immensely offensive it is incomprehensible. Who can know the suffering of Love, except Michael? Who can know what Love is willing to bear, except you? The sweetest human friendship is like sex with a dirty old whore in a dumpster on skid row. It is like telling a dirty joke in the middle of a Holy Convocation.

Humanly it would be a wonder how you could bear all this, how you would want to. Yet I was given to see into your Divine heart and saw how you can do nothing else. I could only see sweet love and tenderness in your face, and I could only feel it in my heart, as I was feeling yours. I could only feel the deep selflessness of your Love, and not only a willingness to bear us, but that even in all the pain, it is a joy for you to do so. I felt no condemnation, only, "Father, forgive them for they know not what they do."

I am now beginning to understand the Two Witnesses' Love for you. I am now beginning to understand what they have borne for you. At times I have seen Ami look into your face, and just start crying, just by looking into your face. I now am beginning to understand what she was seeing.

I realized that I was now experiencing the answer to my prayer, when I said that I want to go through the Consummation with you. When I was feeling this, I was feeling a desire that Father put into my heart, but had not yet known what it would entail. And now so it is, even more. I want to suffer with you, Michael. I want to bear with you what you bear. I want to help take some of your burden, and if that is not possible, then I simply want to feel it with you. This desire is truly divine, for it is not possible for me to want this, or pray for it.

How my view of you and the Witnesses is so different than the earth view. How I see the Consummation, both the former, and the latter, so differently now. There is nothing of the earth in it whatsoever. It is so pure, so clean, so solemn, so holy, so far beyond anything comprehensible in the earth. Oh! How I hate the earth view! How it so desecrates everything pure and holy.

Michael, how things are changing within me so much now. How life looks so different to me. This can only be the divine, for it is not humanly possible for me to see things this way.

I love you, Michael. How I am so drawn out for you. How I so want to feel you, feel what you are feeling, bear what you are bearing. I feel this aching in my heart, and it won't go away.

Allasso

Michael's response: I want to say to you that your letter here is enough to take a load of burden from me. The great burden for me has been the land's blindness, and its total lack of response. "Stupid" is the word I have used. Mentally ill, drooling, souls unable to comprehend heaven's awesome opening. But you have peered in and tasted. You have felt me, describing my experience as if it were your own. This lifts the burdens from me, and carries them with me. No man or imagination has revealed these things to you, but my Father only has shown you these things. Even the angels of heaven cannot enter in as deeply as Father has privileged you to enter in and to see.

Michael

On September 12, 2006

Dear Michael,

I am feeling the vast difference between the experience of the old world and the experience of the Consummation event. What I have felt of this difference is so vast I could not describe it in a thousand words. I can see so clearly how the law cannot save a person, not ever. I would like to share with you what I have been experiencing in regard to this.

I have been experiencing what seems like the beginnings of the Consummation. I am being confronted with issues that would call strongly from me to protect myself. Father has given us images - nakedness, intimacy - to describe the vulnerability required. I am beginning to relate with them now, as though I am physically feeling them, as I go through this. Without the Consummation experience, they are just an idea. 

I have felt like I have gone down into a deep dark labyrinth of catacombs. Thousands of different passages, with no signs or distinctions as to the way to go. The only guide is Father's voice. One cannot "law" his way through this. One has to hear his way through it, all the way from beginning to end. That is the only way. One moment of self protection, and you are lost in the confusion of a thousand voices. One moment of reaching back to the old world for anything at all, and all gets very hopeless. You stand there lost in the darkness. I am truly feeling the impossibility of it, and my absolute and total dependence upon Father. I feel my absolute helplessness, and necessity to hear Father, and not do anything until I do. The degree of abandonment required is awesome. The more I hang my dependence upon Father, the more I become dependent upon Him. It is an experience that draws one deeper into itself.

Truly, one chooses death, who chooses this. One first gives up every hope, every desire, and then chooses to hang his life solely on the small still voice of Father. Yes, one truly chooses death, because what if I am being deceived? Or what if I am deceiving myself? What if I am really not hearing God? I feel the death not only to my natural self, but to my spiritual self, death to my whole existence whatsoever. We give up life, and we give up salvation, and stand here hopelessly dependent upon Father alone, unable and unwilling to reach for that life preserver. It is truly the deepest vulnerability. Truly, this is a mystery to the natural world.

The safe thing to do is to stay outside the cave, and never enter in. One can easily do that by holding on to just a little of his old world. One little desire, one little preference of his own. Just one, even a teeny weeny one. I can see how one can never enter into the experience of the Consummation if they are eating and drinking or having friends, even just a little bit. One can give up just about absolutely everything, but it is that "just about" that will forever keep him in that stupid, mundane, hopeless and confusing world of the flesh. One must be willing to be absolutely, totally, completely dependent upon Father for everything to enter in to this Consummation event. Then one must BE absolutely, totally, completely dependent upon Father for everything to find his way through it. It truly is awesome, and I can see why the flesh has resisted it so desparately. It is absolutely terrifying to the flesh.

This is truly a momentous, and monumental thing that is happening now. It was truly momentous and monumental in 2000, but we were stupid and self interested, and could only stand by curiously wondering at it. Now, in His great mercy, at the very end, Father has provided for us a way once again to leave our stupid self-interested world. The implications appear much greater now to the flesh. But it is the only hope for one who will be saved. It is the only hope for one who wants to know God, and leave his fake religion. It is the only hope for one who wants to know his Lover. One can be here in the land, go to all the meetings, they even can have given up all their desires, they EVEN can have the Spirit of God in them, and have seen much great light, but without the Consummation, it will be as though they were as stupid as everyone else. One cannot choose his own instrument of salvation. One can only choose the instrument that Father provides, when He provides it, if he will choose. The cross was good for Jesus, but it would not do in 2000. He provided the Consummation then, and one could not choose another way. And so now, Father has provided His very own special Consummation event for this present time, the time of the very end.

I pray that we all are aroused out of our stupor to see the importance of this event. I pray we all see that entering into this present Consummation event is not an option, that there is no other course for us except to die in our stupidity and vanity.

As I begin the experiences of this great event, and take in its wonders, I continue to be so struck by the awe of it. I am so struck by its beauty, it is breathtaking. Oh Father! Don't let any one of us miss it!

I truly believe that this present Consummation is THE answer for us now. It is the way that Father has provided for this present moment. It is the Consummation that has been opening these things up to me. Oh how my heart aches for it. Truly my heart is drawn out for the Land, for I want every soul healed from the sick, degraded condition of self-love. But there is more to it. My heart is drawn out for the event itself. It is such a beautiful and glorious thing in my eyes, this so very precious gift from Father, and I don't want to see it mishandled or ignored. It is alive to me, and I want to see it live in its fullest glory, for it is the glory of our Father. It is like it is important to me for HIS sake. I want everyone to find His heart for HIS blessing, for He has sacrificed all for us.

Thank you for your prayers for me, Michael. I know you have prayed them, for I have seen into your heart, and I know your deep interest in my soul. I am truly a very needy soul. I know it is also this way for everyone here.

I love you, Michael, I love you very much.

Allasso

Michael's response: Truly the Father is opening wide the gates so that you may peer in to the reality of the moment. Just what is salvation? It is to find the heart of God. Yes, one may do all things well, but if he does not eat the flesh and drink the blood, it is for nothing. This is actually the love of God. The love of God is the hatred of everything else. When this true hatred of God for the world and its things exists in the soul, the self love vanishes. In that is the omnipotence of God in the soul realized. It is not so much that you have victory, but that victory has you.

These things cannot be taught. They cannot be believed as in a doctrine. No book can put these truths on pages, not even the Bible has them. The truth only comes into the soul from heaven as the Anointing appears there. The soul realizes the truth, but the soul who realizes the truth cannot give it to another. That other soul must FIND that truth for himself. He must discover it for himself. You can tell the soul to get up and wake up, but you cannot give him the truth. He catches it himself, out of the ether, for it is as lightning. It comes in no other way. And so it will be for those who have eyes to see and a heart to understand. 2 Corinthians 2:16. "To the one we are the savour of death unto death; and to the other the savour of life unto life. And who is sufficient for these things?"

Michael

[End of Email from Allasso]

Another family sent the following e-mails to me. This particular family does not live on the land here and had not been to meetings or read any of our meeting transcripts for six months:

Dear Michael,

This verse has been on my heart for a long time. "So Esther was taken unto king Michael into his house royal in the tenth month, in the seventh year of this reign." Esther 2:16. This next month is the 10 month and your 7th year. You are going consummate with virgins and Esther will be favored. She will have the leading roll in the judgment. For her people and against those that are against the Consummation of the judgment, for this will cause the death decree for all of us.

Shiloh

Dear Michael,

You are going to consummate with the appointed virgins. To me this means, that there is a real, literal, consummation of purpose, in the judgment. The world will truly be judged by how they judge this consummation. It WILL bring the end of all things as we know them.

Sincerely,
Trudy